“How did you survive? How did you not go insane? How did you not commit suicide?” I ask myself, but I don’t have a response that can really explain any of it, or the anger I feel toward myself, or my self-revulsion. I ill-treated myself just as everybody else ill-treated me, sometimes even more. The fear of encountering myself blinded me and prevented my re-birth—from within myself, from my gaunt and fragile body. But a body that no longer retained a complete Holocaust.
Farewell, Little Messa is one woman’s true story of a transformation achieved when she visited India. Beginning with a sudden memory recall of a sexually abusive childhood in mid-twentieth century Israel, this lyrical memoir reads like an exquisitely crafted novel as we watch young Messa grow from hiding in closets and fearing nightly visits by her brother, to a loveless marriage, the joy of motherhood, and finally her journey to India where she finds her own private Ganges and assumes her new and whole identity.